Life never gets softer

What a title!

Yep, it gets harder by day; from transition to transition.

I'm now two weeks into my working life as a part-timer and all I could say is that I've already grown weary of this kind of lifestyle. When you start working, its true that you're making money but at the same time your expenses shoots up like mad too. Food prices are up and transport included too. What I hate most about my job is the "getting to work from home" process.

The working environment where I'm confined in reeks of negativity all over. Most of the people are short tempered, uncivilised and do not take pride in their work. Well, what can we expect? Most of the people working nowadays do not quit because they have well become slave of finances.

However, just like anything that we do in life. The roots of it is sheer bitterness but the fruits of it is sweet. We just have to keep pressing on and keep on keeping on. This has caused me to realise more that money is not easily earned and at the same time learn how to better manage it wisely. Thank goodness I've conquered two weeks of work and half a month's pay is coming up real soon! Two more weeks more to go and I'm off!

Come to think of it I really miss my secondary school life a lot! I miss how we could all have fun during recess time in a big group together instead of having lunch alone. I miss the atmosphere of non-serious politics that could be gotton over easily. I miss how we get to exercise our brains rather than doing very routine stuffs like a machine. I miss P.E where we use to have our ball games rather than sitting down all day long. I really miss how I could have enough time on my computer and work hard for studies simultaneously rather than not having any time and not being productive at all. I really really miss all of my friends and teachers!

I feel I've really gone down a level intellectually. During those day-dreaming when no one is around moment at work. I tried forming a few A.Maths questions which might be wrong and I don't even know how to solve them already. This was what Mr Chew, my mum and many others said, its not all about the content but its about the critical thinking process.

Well well well, all of these would have to wait to be proven. For now, my main burden is the release of O' level results. I'm picturing too many what if's and what if's situation, and I'm really starting to get real fearful of it. Well some of you would say, "Hello? Are you kidding me Gerald? ". On the contrary, I've gone through a lot myself to know that there are no absolutes.

Wordy post? Well, the days of pictorial posting is over for now already.

Kissing goodbye to my once active and averagely 55 unique readership per day statistic blog!

Genesis

Friday, November 13, 2009

Hey ALL!


Behold, the day . . we've been longing !

AND

I'm proud to say that what we've suppose to prepare for four years is now done and over!

This is a cliche but it never fails to surprise me, time flies! I still remember I had an English teacher back in Sec 1 days. She told us not to think the days to O levels is forever and four years would just past so fast; by the time you know it you are already in the exam hall.

THATS exactly what went through my mind when I sat for my English Paper right on the very first day!

Well here are my thoughts for this year's O levels. For starters, I think the schedule really made life miserable for most candidates. First week, the first was English paper obviously and followed by "THE MATH ARMAGEDDON"; where we have E.Math P1, P2 and A.Math P1, P2.

The obvious thing to do will be to practice the math like crazy a week before and I DID THAT! Gosh, I've never really done my E.Math before and I'm proud to have completed at least 3/4 of the TYS I bought! The trend for math is that its always easy and tricky but yet the A1 cut off always remain high. For A.math my A1 is ruled out, I only got 75% maybe a A2 or B3 at best? Only those elites up there get their A1s. For E.math I still stand some chances though.

Here's why the schedule made life miserable. Guess what? The second week or should I say by the last day of the first week when I tried revising SCIENCES, it seemed like I've totally lost touch with it! To make things worst, the science papers was coupled together with elective humanities; subjects like Geography and Social Studies. These two subjects, I studied with my fingers crossed!

I employed the spotting and studying smart "thang" and it worked in some ways but yet I think it was screwed anyway. For Social Studies, I only studied and memorised for one theme Globalisation. For any normal SS student, tell that to them and they will tell you its suicide! Well, my spot was correct and for those many many people out there who studied VENICE, C'est La Vie. For Geography, I felt like I wasn't sitting for my syllabus at all. High weightage questions came out but never learnt before and no map work! Combined Humanities, a B4 at best?

YEAP! This was the last paper I sat for today!

It ended with MCQs. I think I got a 37/40?

1 mark above the national's average, secured A1? I'm not sure. But I did my best!

Frankly speaking, I already burnt out since the second week of papers and the studying level wasn't as vigorous as the week before Os.

This just meant I've prepared sufficiently wayyyyyyy before!

RIGHTT!

Enough of the wordy post!

What sort of pictures do you expect from O levels yea?

I believe I'll be filled with satiation when I get back the result next year! Minimally L1B4 would be at 15 and the best 7? I'm aiming real hard to get below 11 and I'm confident; wish me best of luck!

And here's giving credit where credit it due to see me through my Os!

Thank you Atikah Ali for the calculator!

I'll return it to you real sooooon!

Til then , I'm out xD

26 days more to Genesis!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Yes!

26 days more!

Look closely, its not the date of O's, but the coming of the end!

Oh, I really look forward to the coming of it; tonnes and tonnes of paper waiting to be recycled. Its like what the title says, Genesis! Me coming into being again!

Anyway just in case you're mistaken, nope I'm not declaring I'm done studying. Since I thought that today was quite a fruitful day, i'm just taking a little short break that I have to update a bit.

Well, as always I hate to be in the position I'm in. It's as though all of these "burdens" should be on me when it really shouldn't be the case.

Anyway, the start of Genesis will also be the end of Shannon. Well, he's been staying with me for more than half a year now and in just two weeks time, he will not be anymore.

I really want to thank him for being such a nice tenant; being able to put up with me. I know I'm someone not really many could stand being with, even in school and what more staying together? And guess what!? Trust me, we've never once even so called "quarrelled" before. With him around, there is at least someone just a table away almost 24/7 from me that I could be human with. Otherwise, i'mma pure loner. So thanks a lot bro!

He once asked me, when there wasn't anyone around except the two of us; if I don't feel lonely like this and what more if he wasn't around. Being the ME that I am, I always have an answer. However, during the time I was like totally caught offguard, I didn't know what to answer.

Pathetic yep? Well, so like what you always said,

"live with it"

And I believe like what Mr Adnan said,

"If you think the condition you are caught in is that bad, there are even people worst than you"

No idea why I have to deal with the trouble
when I've created none for all of you
when will the pushing of responsibilities stop?
Its really time to own it and give it manzx
I'm just an ordinary 16 year old kid after all,
just as humane as everyone else